Charmaine Tay =P
spanking fifteen 11th Dec 1991
single&lovin'it!<3 singapore-where I belong elegant sagittarius
seashell_134@hotmail.com
kcp chij katong convent secondary
three-five rocks-my-socks odac my passion<3 swimming^^
student councilprefect not perfect (x
I love animals, And i am absoulutely against animal abuse and i feel that everyone should feel the same too.
loves <3
GOD spending time with my friends... rock climbing!!! xD
true friendships
smiling
laughing
just being happy =p
hates ~
mr. s.a tan unwanted attention
people who judge a book by its cover
loneliness
Sound Tastebuds
*Ashlee Simpson
*McFly
*Chris Pine
*Zac Efron
*Tom Cruise
*Avril Lavigne
*Tata Young
*Dashboard Confessionals
*Garbage
*Kai
*Vanessa Anne Hudgens
*Yellowcard
*Click5
*Pink
*Jesse Metcalfe
-anyone I could talk to -anyone who can understand me if i just spoke nonsense -anyone to comfort me when I just want to cry for no apparent reason -anyone i can rely on to help me keep my secrets -anyone who can give me one great big hug -anyone whom can tell how i feel and want to say just by the look in my eyes
? There may never be if i continue to lead my life as a person who is immature and childish and looks at life in 2D never to confront reality in the face. The truth is, i'm not even sure i fit the job of being a student counsilor. I am not the most paitient girl in the world neither am i the bravest and most outstanding student. Thus the reason for being shocked at me being able to shut the whole noisy class up. I'm glad i did that, it showed i did have a thing for being a prefect, a student counsillor, a leader. Thats why they chose me? I do not know. The thought of having a "friend" to talk to is always chased out of my mind in fear of what i might say wrong or if i caught them in the bad time. In most of the time i do and later regret picking up the phone or even writing a short letter. I have classmates, schoolmates, the people who sit next to me in class, the people who chat with me online, but how do i know these people are my friends? My true FRIEND. How much I long to be a young innocent toddler, no worries or homework and homework. Best of all you didnt need friends around you much, you could play all day in the room with little dolls pretending they were alive and talking to each other and your parents wouldn't worry that you have some pshyco problem that you need to go to a shrink. Now, we all, at least I do, go to school, dazed at the board and teacher, go home, eat lunch, stare at the computer and tv. And Blank. I want to be free again, have fun, play and go out with friends! But sad to say i havent found any i could count on yet. At least in primary school or even last year, i had friends, or at least a friend to talk to, gossip while having bacon right infront of the tv having toy guns touching the screan and scraming away with joy as we conquered another level of vampire night. I miss that, i really do. And as i sit here typing away and drying my little tears of regret and sadness, i remember our little promises we made which i swore we would never be able to fulfil as it sounded ridiculous the way you phrased some of them. But now i feel that you wouldn't even remember those promises let alone fulfil them. And thus i regret, regret i ever doubted that we could make those promises. You have lead the past few months without even bothering to call me just to chat. And i can understand why, you've made new friends. I totally understand that, but is it so hard as to pick the phone up to call or even sms once a while? Or at least reply a one word message back to mine? Well i'm sorry if my words sound like i'm screaming. But do not read what i have wrote in the wrong way, I am saying all this in the kindest most loving way i can.
After i read PS: I Love You by Cecelia Ahern, I felt the need for writing this blog post. Haha, i feel so emotional, and yet i am afraid to, as i have no one to discuss this with or laugh about. Like the book says, i do not need pity, nor sympethy, i just need someone there for me. A good friend.
If you think i am wrong about what i say above, than i acknowledge that and would like to know how wrong it is to make it clear, i don't want to live the rest of my holidays feeling all down in the dumps because of this. And I would love to if you were free, to meet up or something together if you're able to and catch up with all the things we have missed out these past few months.
